Mum I Just Watched The News, The Cartoon Was Boring Me. Why Do You Watch It? Mum It Made Me Cry. Can I Tell You The Story I Heard, Can You Explain It To Me? I Don’t Understand Mum, How Can Someone Take Their Life? They Said She Was 15, Just Like Sis, That She Lived In A Village, She Lived In Leicester Too Mum. What Is Suicide? Does It Mean Kill Yourself? Her Body Was Found At Bradgate Park, Bleeding From Her Wrists. What Does Depressed Mean Mum? They Said That’s What Drove Her To Do It. She Said No One Loved Her, Not Even Her Family. Why Are You Crying Mum? Is It Because It’s A Sad Story? I Cried To Mum. Promise You Wont Let Me Get Like That Mum, That You Will Always Love Me And Marie, I Don’t Want To Die Mum, I Don’t Want To End Up Like That. Come Here, I’ll Give You A Special Hug, Please Stop Crying I Have More Questions Mum, Before You Send Me Up To Bed. Where Is Marie, She’s Been Gone A Week? Why Did That Girl Have Her Name? Why Does She Look Like My Sister? Please Mum, Wipe Your Tears And Tell Me, Why Did Marie Commit Suicide? Why Didn’t She Tell Me? Was It My Fault? I Never Told Her I Loved Her, Please Mum, Make Her Come Back, Or Can I Still Kiss Her Goodnight?

When I Was Little And I CriedYou Lovingly Held Me, And Let The Last Tear Fall,When I Would Scrape My KneeYou’d Bandage It Up And Say “Be Careful”.When My Birthday Was Horrible, You SmiledAnd Promised The Next Would Be Perfect.When I Would Lose My Temper,You Had A Way To Calm Me Down.When My Friends Left Me Behind,You Gave Me Ice Cream And Said“They’ll Come Around”When I Had A NightmareYou’d Tuck Me In Your Bed AndReassured Me You’d Never Let Harm Find Me.When My 7th Grade Crush Liked Another,You Made Me See It Was His Loss.When It Was My Sweet 16You Threw Me A Party Fit For A Princess.And Made It A Day I Would Always Remember.When The Love Of My Life Left Me Alone,So Sweetly You Said, “This Too Shall Pass.”When I Broke Your Heart With DisappointmentYou Came To Me And Said, “I Still Love You”.I Know That You Think That I Forgot All This,And Take All You Sacrificed For Granted,But That’s Just Not True.At Times I’m Stubborn, As Well As You,But Never Doubt For Half A Second ThatI Love You.Although I Am Growing Up And Someday Soon,I’ll Have To Bandage My Own Knee,You’ll Always Be The Bet Mother.And I’ll Always Be Your Little Girl.

I Offer Her My Blue, The Sadness On My Soul. For All I Hold As True Stems From This Endless Hole. The Wake Of Shadowed Tears To Forgone Self Esteem. Flowing In Fleeting Years, A River Of Lost Dream. She Offers Me Her Blue, A Tender Midnight Kiss. Awakening Anew Beyond Pain’s Chrysalis. A Butterfly In View, New Dream Set Free In Flight. She Offers Me Her Blue, Sadness Becomes Delight. I Offer Her My Green, The Stain Of Broken Trust. With Nothing Left To Glean, Dried Hands Sifting Through Dust. Counting The Blessings First, Weighed Against My Own Need. I Proffer Up The Worst, Challenge The World’s Greed. She Offers Me Her Green, The Forest’s Sweet Perfume. An Ever Crystalline Vision Of Dogwood Bloom. My Gypsy And My Queen, Chasing Petals Adrift. She Offers Me Her Green, My Greed Becomes My Gift. I Offer Her My Red, Bricks Stacked To Form A Wall. With Emotion Laid Dead Inside, To Hide From All. A Man Molding Vision, In Heart, In Hope, Cast Blind. Forming The Great Prison Of My Subconscious Mind. She Offers Me Her Red, The Petals Of A Rose. Lays Me In Love’s Own Bed, Emotion Overflows Passion Given Full Fled, Past The World’s White Glove. She Offers Me Her Red, My Hate Becomes My Love.

Never Did I Think That Anyone Would Care About What I Felt Inside The Emotions Hidden There But You Came Along Like A Sudden Ray Of Light Chased Away The Darkness Made Everything Alright You Listen When I Talk And Never Turn Away It Means So Much To Me You Brighten Up My Days You Make Me Laugh And Smile When I Feel Like Crying Make Me Feel Better When I Feel Like Dying Its Hard To Find A Friend Who’s Sweet And Cute Like You Who Seems To Find Happiness In Everything You Do Your Like A Diamond A Rose Among The Thorns A Cheeky Little Angel That Somehow Sprouted Horns I Usually Put Up Walls And Not Let Anybody In Afraid They Will See Me Afraid They’ll See Within But With You Its Different I Feel Safe And Secure Cause I Know Your Honest And Your Heart Is Pure I Wonder If I Deserve Such A Friend Like You Someone With Warmth And Compassion Who Always Knows What To Do But I Feel Bad When I Know That Somethings Wrong Its Either That Your Lovesick Or You Feel You Don’t Belong I Want To Help You Thru It And Try To Make You See That I’m Always Here For You And You Can Always Talk To Me Cause A Friend Like You Is A Gift This I Truly Know And No Matter What You Do No Matter Where You Go I’m Always Here For You Till The Very End Just Know This Ill Always Be Your Friend

There Aren’t Enough Words In The DictionaryTo Tell You How Much I Respect You,There Aren’t Enough Ways In The WorldTo Show How MuchI Care About You AndNot Enough Wonderful MomentsTo Share With You While StudyingA Million Beautiful DaysWould Not Be Too Many AndA Million KnowledgeWould Be To Few To Express About Your TeachingsI Thanks God For Giving Me Such A Teacher Like UWishing U A Happy Teacher Day?For Teaching Children Lessons,To Help Them As They Grow,Let This Gift Remind You,You’re The Best Teacher We Know!I Chose This Special Present Because I Wanted You To Know,That I’m Grateful For Your Hard Work In Helping Me To Grow.For Your Constant Understanding And For Always Being There,To Tell Me I Can Do It And To Show Me That You Care!Why God Created Teachers.When God Created Teachers,He Gave Us Special FriendsTo Help Us Understand His WorldAnd Truly ComprehendThe Beauty And The WonderOf Everything We See,And Become A Better PersonWith Each Discovery.When God Created Teachers,He Gave Us Special GuidesTo Show Us Ways In Which To GrowSo We Can All DecideHow To Live And How To DoWhat’s Right Instead Of Wrong,To Lead Us So That We Can LeadAnd Learn How To Be Strong.Why God Created Teachers,In His Wisdom And His Grace,Was To Help Us Learn To Make Our WorldA Better, Wiser Place.

You Smiled With The Grace Of A Teardrop Which Fell Down Your Cheek When You Cried Both Equally Frightening And Beautiful And I Watched You You Kissed With The Force Of A Punch In The Face Which You Received Every Night From Your Father Each The Only Affection You’d Ever Known And I Watched You You Sat Down With The Tranquility Of A Thunderstorm Which Interrupted Your Dreams Of A Future Both Actions Just As Comforting And I Watched You You Drew A Line In Your Flesh With A Knife As Sharp As The Words Which Made The Scars On Your Soul Both The Same Terror And Hurt And I Watched You You Cried Out With The Intensity Of A Breath So Immediate And Reflexive Both Holding The Same Note On Your Lips And I Watched You You Fell To The Ground With The Weight Of Laughter Dead And On Deaf Ears Each Scaring And Astounding Me And I Watched You You Stared Up With The Blankness Of A Mosaic Seemingly Whole But Still Shattered Each A Tiny Shard Of Glass In The Mirror Of Life And I Watched You You Touched Me With The Gentleness Of A Viper Your Grip Smooth And Fatal The Marks Left On My Skin Only Fractions Of The Poison Left In Me And I Watched You You Released With The Leisure Of A Blink So Long And Yet So Quickly Gone Both Believing Never To Be Remembered By Those Who Have Experienced Your Presence And I Followed You

Please Open Your HandAnd Reach For MineGrab A Hold Of MeDo Not Let GoWe Are Almost At The EndThe End Of Our New BeginningLove Brings HappinessLove Brings HurtBut Your Love Leads MeTo A Better PurposeAnd A Better LifeYou Are The Light That Guides MeI Will Not Stop FollowingUntil That Light Shines OutI Will Be Sitting Right HereAnd Waiting For YouEvery Time You WalkI Cant Keep My Eyes Off Of YouEvery Time You TalkMy Ears Wont Stop ListeningEvery Time You BreathI’m ThereI Will Do Whatever It TakesTo Keep You SmilingEvery Time You SmileMy Eyes StarePlease Find A Reason To StayDo Not LeaveYour Love For MeIs All The Pride I NeedIll Do Whatever It TakesTo Make It WorkAnd Make Me BelieveThat One Day AgainI Hold YouI Remember When I Told You The Day I Love YouI Remember When You LaughedYour Worth Every MemoryThe Good And The BadI Have Fallen More In Love With YouMore Then I PlannedAnd I Don’t Want To Get UpBecause You Hold Everything Of MineYou Hold My LifeYou Hold My PrideYou Hold My PassionAnd You Certainly Hold My HeartI Will Not Ask For It BackBecause I Will Just Give It Back To YouWhen I Ask You One Simple QuestionAnd Its Just Four Words LongYou Will Hold My Heart Until Death Do Us PartBecause I Pray That I Will Be Able To SayWill You Marry Me?But Until ThenAll I Have To SayIs Also Four Words LongAnd I Can Proudly SayI’ll Always Love You

It’s Comming On So Slowly, It’s First Showing It Self, At First I Barely Noticed, But Now I’m Catching Up First There Was The Music, First There Was The Sound, The Screaming Hell Of Something Terrible Being Born In This World All I Can Think Of Is Writing, I Want To Place This Rage, It’s Taking Over My Hand, It’s Writing This All Down Then It Started Watching, Now It’s Silent Stalking, It Follows Me Home, And Creeps Into My Soul Help Me I Cannot Speak Help Me I Cannot Think It’s Looking At The People Around Me, It’s Seeing Into Your Souls, Causing Me To Go Insane, It Hates You And Everything It Makes Me Want To Eat You, It Makes Me Want To Vomit You, It Makes Me Want To Hurt You, It Makes Me Want To Kill You, It Makes Me Want To Hide, It Makes Mw Want To Die, It Makes Me Then My Outside Changed, The Hair, The Clothes, The Way I Walk The Way I Act, The Way I Talk, The Looks On Your Face, Reflecting The Ways Of My Face, My Expressionless Pit Of Eyes That Go Down Into Its Soul, Yes You Can See It You Can See It It’s Devouring Me I Can’t Get Loose I Shake And Cry Plead And Pull But It Only Seethes Around, And Into My Soul Faster Its Grip Hardens I Scream In Pain I Need Release I Need Help Me When It Sleeps I’m Almost Myself When I Am Alone I Can Almost Taste It Normality The Person I Once Was, But When It Returns When I Know It Will But Do I Really Want It To Go?

You Walk Into The Store And Stride Down The Aisle. You Pick Me Up And Try To Look Casual While You Carry Me Down To The Checkout Line. Pull Out Your Wallet, You Soon Will Be Mine. Your Friends Are Observing Every Move That You Make. The Clerk Asks For Id You Show Him A Fake. You Quickly Walk Down To The Front Of The Store. Your Friends Are Waiting For You As You Step Out The Door. You Hop In The Car And Drive Away From The Shop. Then You Shut Off The Ignition, And Pop Off My Top. You Take A Few Drinks And Pass Me Around. That’s When You Decide To Take A Drive Around Town. You Turn On Your Car And Put Your Foot On The Clutch. I’m Sober, You Think I Didn’t Have Very Much. You Pull Onto The Road With Me By Your Side, Taking Occasional Sips As You Enjoy The Ride. Then The Brakes On The Car In Front Of You Squeal. You Try Hard To Stop, But Lose Control Of The Wheel. You Skid Off The Road, And You Know You Have Crashed. The Dashboard Is Shattered, The Windshield Is Smashed. Minutes Like Hours, You’re In Treacherous Pain, That Washes Your Senses, Envelops You Brain. The Screams All Around You Are Faint To Your Ears, As Life Flashes Before You, Your Hopes And Your Fears. Minutes Like Hours, You Plead And You Pray, I’ll Never Touch It Again, Just Let Me Live One More Day. Your Mind Starts To Go Dark, It Falls Apart Piece By Piece. And Then You Slip Into Blackness, The Pain Has Finally Ceased. Before You Entered That Store, You Should Have Thought Twice, For I Am The Substance That Cost You Your Life.

I Just Can’t Get Over You I Really Don’t Know What To Do Everything I Did I Did For You Now There’s Nothing Left For Me To Do I Love You More Than You’ll Ever Know Eventhough You’ve Been Treating Me So Cold To The Devil I Would Sell My Soul Just So I Would Have Your Hand To Hold But, I Just Had To Let You Go Everything You Ever Said Is Always Running Through My Head Through My Broken Heart, It Was You I Lead “You’re A Very Good Friend”, To Me You Said You Voices Echoes Thrughout My Head Without You, I Might As Well Be Dead For I Felt This Weird Desire Never Wanting Our Friendship To Expire It’s Your Strength That I Really Admire You Fed And Took Care Of My Inner Fire But Now I See The Brutal Truth You’re Just Another Liar Whenever You Could, You Caused Me Pain I Think You Loved To Drive Me Insane It Was My Soul That You Wanted To Maim I Never Thought You Could Be So Lame You Promised Me You’d Change But You Still Remained The Same On Me You Put All The Blame Convincing Me To Feel The Shame Our Friendship Was So Simple And Plain ‘Abusive’. There! I Gave It A Name You Just Couldn’t Stop Hurting Me Away From You I Tried To Flee All Too Reluctantly I Hope That One Day You Will See How Very Much You Will Always Mean To Me Looking Down On You, I Am Free I Love You Madly, But Please Just Let Me Be! I Don’t Think I Can Get Over You I Really Don’t Know What Else To Do Everything I Did I Did For You Now There’s Nothing Left For Me To Do

Have I Ever Told You Honey, That You Mean The World To Me, That I’ve Never Felt So Much Love, In My Entire Life. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That My Love For You Wil Never End, That I Will Go On Loving You, Till My Very Last Breath. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That When Ever I Am With You Dear, I Feel So Happy And Blessed, I Feel So Much More Than What I’m. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That You Are My Everything O Angel, And That Someday I Hope To Be, Next To You In Your Strong Arms. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That I Only Want You In This Life, That No One Else Can Replace You, That You Are The Only One For Me. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That It’s You Who Owns My Heart, And When I Am With You I Feel Like, I’m Never Gonna Fall Apart. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That You Are Always On My Mind, And When I’m Thinking Of You, I Blush Because You Are All Mine. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That I Love You With All My Heart And That No Matter What Happens, From You I Will Never Part. Have I Ever Told You Honey, That You Mean Happiness To Me, And That When I Look At Myself, You Are All I Ever See Sweets. Have I Ever Told You Honey, You’re The Only One I Wanna Be With, That When Ever I Close My Eyes, You’re The Only Picture In My Mind. Have I Ever Told You Honey, With You I Find Myself Alive And, That I’ve Never Felt Before, And I’ve Never Felt A Love Like This, Have I Ever Told You Honey, Yes I Have,But Still Let Me Say It, You Are My Dream Come True And From All My Heart I Love You

Before I Could Love Somebody I Have To Love MyselfI Have To Love Me More Than I Love Somebody ElseI Can’t Continue Putting Him FirstI Have To Gain Some Self Worth.I Can’t Make Him Happy When I’m SadWhen I’m Gone He Will Realize What He Had.I Can’t Take This Pain No MoreI Know To Him I Just Got To Close The Door.I Can’t Keep Crying Over Him When I Know He Doesn’t Love MeI Have To Wake Up I Have To Finally See.I Wasn’t Meant For HimHe Wasn’t Meant For MeWhy Am I Finding It So Hard To Just Set Him Free.So Many Years I Tried And TriedSo Many Times I Know In My Heart That He Lied.All Time I’ve Wasted I Can’t Get BackI Need Someone To Give Me The True Love That I Lack.If You Loved Me He Would Have Put Me Above AllHe Wouldn’t Expect Me To Be There At His Every Beck And Call.He Would Left Me Up Instead Of Putting Me DownHe Would Have Appreciated The True Loved He Found.Instead He Caused Me So Much Hurt And PainDrowning My Tears In The Falling Rain.God, Please Give Me The Strength To Just Let Him GoWhy Do I Still Play The Fool, When I Know.Love May Hurt Sometime But It Doesn’t Hurt This BadWhy Am I Trying To Make Him Happy When I’m Truly Sad?I Have To Put Myself First I Have To Love MeWhy The Hell He Won’t Just Let Me Be.Love Is So Easy To Fall In, And So Hard To Fall OutI Know In My Heart I Could Do Without.I Just Don’t Know How To Make Him Go AwayHow Do I Get My Heart From Wanting Him To Stay?I Need Someone To Give Me A Love That Is TrueAnd I Know Now That It Is Not You….

Sunrise On The Desert. Golden Sands, A Red Orange Sky. A Shadow Cast In Darkness On The Winds Subtle Cry. Crossing A Painted Picture, A Seemingly Endless Cage. Facing Another Day Alone, The Cowboy Turns The Page. He Rides Towards The Horizon, Where Each Night The Sunsets Hide. Black Stetson Hat, Callused Hands, On The White Horse He Calls Pride. A Face Rough And Unshaven, Kabar Knife, Boots And Levi’s. Never A Smile, Never A Frown, Just Wild, Blue Staring Eyes, And The Desert Winds Blow Harsh, Dust Kicking Up In His Sight. But Steady On His March, The Man Presses On Through The Plight. Perseverance Leads The Way, On The Lonely, Sometimes Dreadful Quest. Indeed A Good Man Some Would Say, But I’d Say He’s The Best. And The Dream Seems Within Reach Now, The Tiresome Journey Nearing Its End. He Can See It In The Distance, As The Storm Seems To Suspend. A Land Where Emotions Flourish In Grandiose Euphoria. A Land Where Pain Eases And Hearts Nourish, A Land He Calls “Utopia”. Yes Determination, Will, And Guts, His Three Best Friends Behooved Have Led Him To The Crossroads Where Nothing Remains To Be Proved. The Desert Lies Behind Him, Prosperity Just Ahead On The Plain. He Slows Up Just A Moment, Gently Pulling Back The Reign. Tipping His Hat Without Looking Back To Those He Touched On This Parade. He Holds His Head High, Lets Out A Sigh, Watching A Brilliant Sunset Fade. And Night Comes On The Wings Of Angels, Calling A Billion Stars To His Side. Carrying Him Away To His “Utopia”, The Cowboy’s Final Ride.

She looks like she stole the stars right from the skiesAnd sewed them into the pupils of her gorgeous eyes,She blinks with insecurity but with amazement too,This pretty little girl just doesn’t have even a clue.Her pretty little voice flutters the inside of my heart,It makes me want to shield her from everything,And beat anyone up who comes across her path,So anyone reading this, beware of dog, is the sign.She lifts up the souls to everyone she talks too,Because she has the magical power, that I want,But I can’t have because she is a one of a kind,With a special heart that no one else can ever have.She lives in a very evil town in the state of Nebraska,Where the people just don’t give a hoot about anything,They just stop and stare, but they don’t go anywhere,Followers is what I’d like to call them, who knows.She lives in an evil little house, where snakey lives,She too, doesn’t give a smudge about life itself,Thank god she had a daughter, because I’d fail;I’d fail majorly in life without this special person.Ever since I’ve known her, she has always amazed me,She keeps my imagination running and rolling along,She makes sure my chin is up and looking forward,Strong as steel even though we have our moments.If I lived there with her, no one would ever hurt her,Because I’d stomp on the faces who dared to even try,And bet me on anything, because that is no lie,She is like my daughter, and I love her so dang much.I’d give her my last bite of food, and last drink to drink,I’d give her my shoes if she didn’t have any to wear,I’d give her my pen, if she came to school unprepared,And most of all, I’d give her my last breath.

As I Began To Love MyselfAs I began to love myselfI found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signsthat I was living against my own truth.Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebodyAs I try to force my desires on this person,even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it,and even though this person was me.Today I call it “RESPECT”.As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life,and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow.Today I call it “MATURITY”.As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance,I am in the right place at the right time,and everything happens at the exactly right moment.So I could be calm.Today I call it “SELFCONFIDENCE”.As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time,and I stopped designing huge projects for the future.Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to doand that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm.Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health –food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself.At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right,and ever since I was wrong less of the time.Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future.Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening.Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb meand it can make me sick.But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally.Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problemswith ourselves or others.Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born.Today I know “THAT IS LIFE”!